Ugly as an aesthetic category. Gradual abandonment Unity. Das negativschone, negatively beautiful —
Sublime and the ridiculous, how one rubs up against other —
Overwhelming ugly becomes monstrous, can no longer be sublated into sublime –
Definitions of monstrous – as a badge of ?
when sublime generates excruciation which due to its intensity provides negative stimulus, disruption, disunity, nightmare, much like theatre, like entertainment, only its nebulousness and carnality are interior – not extraneous
charms, emotions, direct impact on health – illness over what life is and what it represents – illness as a line of separation, that presents itself as a defiant metamorphical indivinity, from the doldrums, repetition, impoverishment, heartbreak. songs of threnody emerge from banality like a dangling noose hungry for freedom
vicious cycle unnatural excess unnatural savagery seen as outside of useful
savagery has been called, attachment to a particular choice so suspends rational comparison with possible choices, thrall of passion, passio animi
passion seen as morally reprehensible,
on inclination to freedom as passion
abject, and the disgusting – desperately try to resist being dragged into it.
objects of disgust threaten corporeity
DESTABILIZES line that separates the inside of our body from its outside. Border that separates gets violated!! Inside penetrates out.
Blood – becomes sweet again, takes on nature of ailing heart of god traveling through pain and horror of being mortal. Writhe seeing through time as if in a time beyond time its wretched repetitious onslaught, ugly, constant, inescapable, belabored, searching for beauty finding a blanket of horror.
Horror itself becomes mark of virtue.
violating inside outside frontier
Story Titles: Luminence Flux, Degrees of Freedom, Duck Quacks Loudest Gets Shot