Dried Songs

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How get around that wrt others in trade split this from that. Was all excited exchanging snow. And getting snow plowed. Till poison seeped in — with a Crack — which I remember — it all coming back —

Reviewing earlier stuff. Never really went there entirely. Why I saw somehow as “finish it finish it” but then again, smashing annoying irrepressible bottle to see what nuggets for the buggers crawl out is not an opening. But searching for a rest?

Proving once again? Still can get swept away, still can get pounded into chunks of meat when the brand fishing sizzles against pylon — poison grifting. Not running from it. But approaching as dunkelkammer — not dying from the poison nor wish to violate others as abrasions of torture.

What? not including death rants in book? No — just not mistaking this for that. Here where discuss issues. Tho know heart is always involved in some way all aspects of work.

Know poison torture stuff Inside out. Poison pen woke up early. Some stuff le carre talks about in the littler drummer girl. About boredom bleeding radically against suburban conformity, day after day the yellow pad, raging thrash songs of innocence and drudgery.

See scale dried songs —

I did. Many marm earlier — are articulations staged around emergence of issues.

Civility vicinity graceful is, when is, is it, is at. 

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Yes. Struck by that. I mean, think about it every day and try to keep structure (forpeaceofmind) simple.

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I am caught between truths. Some of old can’t be killed. I won’t do it. Trying hen doors a middle way. Stop seeing faces as edges! all the knives, all the beautiful cuts? Work itself eating it up. Part of poison plastic. Must acknowledge that, have had a blast capturing mornings collateral — which quickly ditch into archive, but still think it treasure.

Gonna call Poison — a Char too. Yeah. Find double P for it, to undercut its urge towards my fatality. Like with neg nog. Which I should make in book a fabled drink. Could I pull that off without loosing its seriousness. Smith does little runs after Swift. Lets her tongue tho cut into it, so does Syvie. Syvie doesn’t use fable.

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What does that mean? Oh because of the writing. Yeah MONTHS. Nothing must stop me. Thats a GIVEN. Only way for me to get her done. I am an inchworm etc. First person POV finally showing up. In a way that tracks back to earliest extant bard stuff. From heroic doing the dozens.

Discovery commanded fat principle middleton.

Had none — grew up believing middle was death. Herewith absorbed new ways think about middle in terms began to make sense of without ditching anything.

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Nesting — won ur full discovery. Gave me something to call it that was regular, not too too too invasive. Support — like for instance this — IS in itself enabling.

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For my little drummer girl, to be at ease with in presence where steal things not small. But admittedly mine others genius — old meaning for:

OED: A person’s appetite. 1607   B. Jonson Volpone i. i. sig. B2   What should I do, But cocker vp my Genius, and liue free To all delights, my fortune calls me too?

Too any appearance announcing impossible one.

Have a blind spot there — fall into, for sure.

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Most Valuable to me, not just conclusions but process — everything about this engages me. Smallness is about my life. But not the writing? Writing engages all kind of fly but also admits pylon is on underside, appear beginning to get thru to surface, as skin in fiction …. Chuck talks about that too…

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Allowance only exists in marm. And even then, seems quite acute.

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Discovery of watershed here, spanning the insatiable, a profound relief.

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Touch stones are an anomaly.

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Coming to peace with encountered here — erecting continuity so to examine the furniture, correspondingly. Enormously helpful.

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Everything about this is, in a way, a conviction to reassess. A detente for me with things concrete. As well as leeway for fluidic insatiable to cess.  

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Evil is so painful, chaotic dazzling, merciless. Makes one swoon yes. But aftermath is devastating, a grim serial killer, not joyous. At all.

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Its only now that I can see the evil for what is and isn’t. Without coinciding advent full of monstrous lament.

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Very hard time back when. Some sort of migration going on. Again and again not in control of personality. One after another emerged without warning. No bottom no top no anything. Shocked fascinated besotted stupified — life was turning into a holy terror. Next five years — arguably crucifying, as a metaphor for my metamorphosis.

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Continuity for me “sincerely” corresponds with endless “love”, an evolution toward “aqua viva” for Blick, who exchanges tea, tans, nests peripherally. 

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